Should I leave my dreams and just live a miserable life?

I have a good cgpa and I understand the topic rather than just Knowing that from texts. I have applied for 120 plus applications in the last 1.5 or 2 months and I got nothing, none of them got past the resume shortlisting, I haven't even got any scam internship mails, every mail I have will have "unfortunately" in it.. I have to make ends meet to resolve the finance crisis in my family... Should I just leave the idea of getting inside IT and go to the ar voice or manufacturing fields?? I am losing my hope day by day and tried to end myself thrice but couldn't do it thinking bout the people near me which made me live in dilemma.. should I leave my dreams of stability and sanity and just live along and then die??? I have good communication skills and can learn continuously in any environment given. Can someone help why I can't get any application passing or alter switch, I will be really grateful for your advice.. Sorry about that rant.. can't do that with family or friends cause they will say that they have gone through heaven and hell but never advice or answer my question which my life is as miserable as it was.. am sorry and grateful.

Posted by /u/Visual_Negotiation33 on r/jobhunting
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